My Most Unusual Gift

Sometimes I get scared to keep sharing my story, because there are people who see me continually speaking to death and pain, who perceive that to mean that I'm stuck in the grief, not moving on, not living joyfully, dwelling on the past. And it's perceptions like that, that made me feel like a lecherous … Continue reading My Most Unusual Gift

You Are Now Entering the “Spring” of Your Life

This morning, I was watering my rose bushes that have been a little neglected the last few weeks. They were starting to look a little brown and dingy, so I had to pay attention to them. As I was hosing them down, I started aiming the spray at the dead leaves to help them fall … Continue reading You Are Now Entering the “Spring” of Your Life

A Different Kind of Near-Death Experience

I thought I was doing fine, since the Memorial. I doused that place in a good storm puddle of my own tears on Saturday, and I guess I thought that'd do me for awhile. But, today, it came back. Listening to this haunting, powerful, poignant, bomb-hitting-your-house sort of poem of Christopher's. I've never heard anything … Continue reading A Different Kind of Near-Death Experience

“What, Where, Who Have You Helped Today?!”

"Christopher's Legacy" Written 8-26-12 Last night, I attended the Memorial Service for Christopher Ya’ir Lane, one of probably a couple hundred people who attended. The service began around five and didn’t end until after 8. There were so many souls, who were given a voice by Christopher, or reminded to use their voice in his … Continue reading “What, Where, Who Have You Helped Today?!”